So the course of the past six months have been pretty entertaining when it came to my future. I applied to graduate schools in December for Structural Engineering. I'm really excited about the possibility of going to school again, the subject really interests me. Yet in the midst of the last two months - alot has happened. Nothing to deter me from graduate school, but just other stuff. I guess I got more and more dis-couraged that I'd get into a school - being a physics undergrad NOT an engineering undergrad.
Low and behold I am excepted into a great school and am getting flown out there to visit it. All in the course of a week. It's really exciting how God throws stuff at ya. I'm super pumped for this weekend and can't wait to check out this school.
I am seriously wayyyy tooo blessssed
Monday, March 9, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
An account of
It really is a task living day to day. I'm not naive, I don't believe a fairy tale ending at all.
Sleep, work, play, sleep, work, play. Lately the hum has been ringing through my life. Am I to complain? Not at all, how blessed I am. Yet where does living fit in with this hum? Is it rather the tone of the hum? Or am I simply characterizing the life I want to live as something which deviates from what grand master plan the Lord has for me? If so why do I, or better yet, how can I love one so much, yet not desire the hum to press against the inside of my head? A hum spoken by the creator of the universe.
Living, for me, is a subjective experience quantified by the wants and desires of my heart. Yet my soul, my heart, isn't always a book open to read, even to me - the author. To have such an experience as living, one where living can only be defined by the measures of my heart ----
I have to reconcile, not just my desires, my wants, and even my fears, but I have to reconcile my will to God. I have to choose to believe, to follow, to hand over, to submit, to be under authority, to love, to lean on. It is a choice birthed by decision, but lived through by a truth.
A truth which defines who I am, why I desire and want, why I fear, what I struggle with, where I am going, how I am to live. Daily I die, daily I choose truth. What is truth?
Jesus Christ is God
He loves me
He died for me
He will never forsake me
Sleep, work, play, sleep, work, play. Lately the hum has been ringing through my life. Am I to complain? Not at all, how blessed I am. Yet where does living fit in with this hum? Is it rather the tone of the hum? Or am I simply characterizing the life I want to live as something which deviates from what grand master plan the Lord has for me? If so why do I, or better yet, how can I love one so much, yet not desire the hum to press against the inside of my head? A hum spoken by the creator of the universe.
Living, for me, is a subjective experience quantified by the wants and desires of my heart. Yet my soul, my heart, isn't always a book open to read, even to me - the author. To have such an experience as living, one where living can only be defined by the measures of my heart ----
I have to reconcile, not just my desires, my wants, and even my fears, but I have to reconcile my will to God. I have to choose to believe, to follow, to hand over, to submit, to be under authority, to love, to lean on. It is a choice birthed by decision, but lived through by a truth.
A truth which defines who I am, why I desire and want, why I fear, what I struggle with, where I am going, how I am to live. Daily I die, daily I choose truth. What is truth?
Jesus Christ is God
He loves me
He died for me
He will never forsake me
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